A personal psalm

I am currently undertaking a two year theology course run by the Diocese of Chelmsford, called Course in Christian Studies (CCS). We have been challenged to write our own psalm. I’ve really found the psalms a great source of comfort over the past couple of months. Prayers of praise, worship and lament written thousands of years ago are as relevant today as they were then.

But, in these times of lockdown, finding a quiet space to focus on God isn’t always easy. This morning I woke at 6:30am with the inspiration of the Spirit on my heart (and a sleepy household). God has a way of nudging us in the right direction!

This is my personal psalm:

Child of God

My Lord and my God, 
I praise you, creator of heaven and earth.
My Lord and my God,
I worship you, giver of life.
My Lord and my God,
I bow down before you, judge and defender.

And yet, you know my inmost being.
You know my heart and my joy,
my anxieties and my sorrow.
When I am low you lift me up,
you comfort and sustain me.
When I am on the mountain top
you are the guide who led me there.

You love me despite my failings.
You love me despite my flaws.
You love me despite my insecurities.

When I wander from your presence,
you never give up on me.
Your open arms welcome me home
with unconditional love.

You lavish me with grace,
again and again.
Like never-ending waves on the shore,
washing over me.

I am a Child of God.

The best Christmas present

I really enjoy sharing my thoughts on here, and so much has happened in the past few months! It’s been quite a while since I’ve posted, so a lot of catching up to do. I’ll try and keep my posts short and sweet!

During our annual trip to the New Wine United summer conference with my church, I really felt God urging me to learn the guitar. I have never even picked one up before, let alone play! I can’t read music and don’t know about the theory. But I am part of our Worship Group at church and sing regularly. I mentioned quietly to James how I felt God was challenging me with this, so he very kindly made His suggestion into a reality by giving me a guitar for Christmas.

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Worship in the Spirit and in truth

They come along every now again – the crazy weeks where everything collides. You realise you’re out virtually every evening: Evening worship, Church AGM,  planning meetings. And then it dawned on me, not only was it home group on Thursday, but I’d offered to lead the session.

After work I hastily went through my iTunes worship collection and selected a contemplative favourite from Rend Collective, Simplicity, for us to open in worship with. We’d been looking at ‘thirst’ during our Sunday evening service, so thought I’d take the easy option and follow that theme.  I looked up a passage from John 4, ‘Jesus talks with a Samaritan woman’.  To be fair, I would have liked to have put a bit more thought into it, but time wasn’t on my side.

God doesn’t do coincidences.

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